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Tuesday, May 29, 2012

ANSABEH NI EX? (25 thigs about me according to him)

Someone whom I knew for only 2 months thought and assumed that these are the things that could make me happy and texted all these to Nani. Both of us just laughed at this at that time knowing that we can last for years even without this. Some of the things here are true, while the others ...uh, no, definitely not me! Nani let me keep the note though and often times refer to this whenever he wants to "bully" me XP

I saw the note today at the back of a book and I thought I'd re-write and somehow do some corrections on it :)



*I put here his ORIGINAL and UNEDITED version while the bold and italized texts is how things (really) are, specifically with Nani*

1. Let her talk. She always claim that she is timid but let her talk and start to listen and you wll think you were a part of the adventure because she talks in detail.(WE both talk one at a time and WE both listen one at a time too.. I guess normal people refers to that as having conversations? And there's no need for me to make Nani feel that he's included in it, because he's really there when most of the things that we talk about happened)

2.Give her a rose. It is her dream to receive a rose from a man she loves.(Just thought about it now...We have been together for 26 months now and I haven't received any flower from Nani yet. But guess what, I am ok with it!)

3.Aways send her SMS. No matter how unimportant the content of your message, it will make her smile. (Definitely a no! I don't even text often...and If I do, it's only for me to make sure if Nani is safe. But as to what he is doing, or who are the people that he's going out with? No I don't ask that.. He voluntarily introduced me to his friends and he always let me know in advance what his plans are (whether its about his work or if he's going out with his friends. So why would I bug him about the details when I already know he's busy or having fun?)

4.Always tell her that you love her. She will always ask you why so make a list of reasons. You can recycle or paraphrase your previous reasons. She just want to hear from you that you love her. (Again wrong... I only asked Nani once.. I don't even remember his reasons now..I know he can be trusted, so why would I ask him about it every time? And one more thing, I am not a retard. So why would I want to hear recycled reasons everytime I ask?)

5.Talk and plan for your future wedding. She is a nature lover so plan your wedding so that it will be located where there are trees. Don't worry how to do it or think of the budget because she is willing to adjust. She is happy and satisfied as long as you are his husband.(As long as Nani is my husband.)

6.Name your future babies together. Don't include your ex gf's in your future baby's name.(Oh yeah, we do this sort of thing to amuse ourselves...most of the time...and since we're only having fun, no we don't mind if it's a combination of Nani's name and of his ex's... Sometimes I am even convinced that the resulting name is beautiful. But then, again I know that nani is not insensitive and knows his limitations if the time comes that we will be naming our future babies, for real!)

7.Don't tell the truth. Don't admit that your legs are shaking in front of her mom. Not because you want to look macho but it will make her comfortable to bring you again in their house.(No need for this advice. Nani is most welcome to stay and spend the weekends and the holidays with us. He even gained the trust of my lola who never trusted you.)

8.Always tell the truth except in number 7. Some of the things you will say will hurt her but it will gain her trust and she will also start to tell yoou everything. Telling her the truth will remove her fears and will make her more at ease with you.(Nani is an honest man...from the beginning till now. So there's no need for this advice)

9.Play with her younger brother. It will make you feel closer to their family. At the same time give her a glimpse of your future happy family together. (I think Nani naturally loves my little brother that everytime I come home without him, he always ask "Ate, where is kuya Nani?")

10.Read her paperworks. She is good writeer and thus encourage her to write more. Just forgive her handwriting. (Yes I am really a good writer, Thank You)
11.Make her realize that she is beautiful. She thinks that she is ugly because of some of her imperfections. Prove to her that she is beautiful inside and out. (Nani already did the moment he said he loves me).

12.Bring her to a place where she can sing because she has a beautiful voice. Or simple ask her to sing. Buy her musical stuffs if you have extra money, to encourage her more. (I can sing much better now even if he don't spend anything to buy me those stuff. Nani's music is already curved in my soul. Chos!)

13.Let her wear your shorts or shirts. It will make her feel closer to you. (At least this one is correct!)

14.Don't restraint or be hinder to anything she loves to do. She is very creative and will always do what she think is right. (Nani has always been supportive.)

15.Watch movie together. No matter how boring or cheesy the twilight series, she wil enjy it as long as you are together. (I really enjoy watching movies whether I am alone or with anyone. I sometimes get angry at Nani whenever he falls asleep at the middle of any movie that we see together, may it be in big screen or in his laptop...but in the end, I guess it's just fine with me...at least he came to see it with me. And it don't matter if it's drama, comedy, action or horror... I am just happy watching a movie. )

16.Eat at KFC. She loves twister. Actually she loves eating with you. (I really loved twister then, sorry! hmmm it's been such a long time since I last ate that.I might as well visit the nearest KFC store one of these days...)

17.Always bring water. She is always thirsty and want to drink water. So make sure you know the location of the cofort rooms of the places you re going to visit. (If I remember it right, this was written two summers ago...so yeah, definitely I was always thirsty at the time.)

18.Always ask what is her dream. Listening to her dreams will make her feel that she is important and at the same time you will gain knowledge on what is in her subconscious mind. (False. It works the other way around. Tell me your dream and If I am somewhere in it, I will know that I am important to you. On the other hand, I think Nani doesn't tell me about his dreams either...because he talks about his plans..our plans..)

19.Don't watch mix mrtial arts competitions or any violent stuffs together. She will remember the beatings that her fathe did to her. (Not applicable anymore).

20.Always call her by your endearment name. Don't call her sweetheart or honey. Make it unique. (Nani came up with Malko even without this note. And nope, again I don't mind if he calls me by my name or by our endearment name. What concerns me is how true his feelings are.)

21.Don't get irritated when she compares you to her previous bf/crushes.She does not have an intention to belittle you. She just want to realize that she loves you whoever you are. (No need for comparison. Nani is way much better.)

22.Fetch her at the bus terminal or bus stop even if you are busy doing important things or rushing paperworks that have deadlines the following day. (I am not always Nani's priority but he always make sure he can adjust his sched and attend to my needs after he' s done with his job. Or he always make it a point to inform me beforehand of his plans so that I can adjust to him as well. )

23.Spend the new year's eve with her family and go to the grocery store together and buy food for the medya noche. (yeah, for two years now, it has become a tradition for the both of us. We spend Christmas in Nueva Ecija and New Year in Laguna.)

24.Buy her a book or download ebooks for her. She loves to read. (Nani's mom and siblings are readers too and they let me borrow some of their books. We also go to bookstores whenever we are at the mall).

25.DON'T LEAVE HER FOR SOMEONE OR SOMETHING. (We've been together for 26 months...and as of this moment, I am secure and confident that he's not going to leave me for someone or something anytime soon. So thank you, but I guess this advice just don't apply. Nani is NOT like you. )

Nani's family is also not well off...and I am completely trusting him that no matter what, even if we get poorer than what we alreay are right now, he will never left me.

BECAUSE UNLIKE YOU, HE WON'T LEAVE ME FOR SOMEONE WHO MIGHT GET HIS FAMILY OUT OF POVERTY. UNLIKE YOU, I KNOW THAT HE WON'T DROP ME IN EXCHNGE OF SOMETHING LIKE AN OPPORTUNITY TO GAIN HIGHER POSITION OR MONEY...I am just thankful that at least, you are brave enough to TEXT and ADMIT those things.

Maybe under your present situation, you'll say it's just an alibi that you just made up. No matter what, I will always believe that it was your real motive. Why? Because from what I remember, you said you were supposed to court and hopefully marry the daughter of your school's VP..(For your nanay to finally experience the luxury of life and to fulfill your own dreams) But I guess things didn't work out as you planned them... and maybe that's how you ended up (pretending good enough) head over heels with your current gf (who shouts money and world tour) who is obviously a much better pick..

it's just sad that she's so clueless..and I guess too submissive and (really) head over heels for you that she can't hardly see the trap you set for her...

I guess I'm out of words to say and I am not very good at praying but I am only hoping that God will save her from you. Because I think she's kind and deserves a better man than you are.

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